Resting

There comes a time in life when you just need to rest.
No hurrying about. Not doing anything life changing.
Just spending time with yourself and resting…. your mind…. your body…. and your spirit.
If we don’t take the time to do this of our own accord from time to time the universe will take it out of our hands and force it upon us.
And so it was with me.
I now find myself in a place of resting.
The decision was forced upon me.
One morning I attended a meeting with my General Manager and manager before I was due to start my shift and afterwards the only time I went back to my desk was to clear it out.
The decision made by the organisation was largely financial and was not made lightly by those in higher positions.
And so I find myself now with time on my hands.
Time to do the things I’ve been putting off because I’ve been so tired or unwell on the days that I did have off work.
I have mended the curtains in the back room. Put together book cases for the pile of books beside my bed to house my ‘to read’ pile. I have ironed, dusted, washed floors and cleaned windows.
I have made and attended appointments that have been put off for some time due to work clashes.
I have also spent time reading, journalling, praying, meditating and listening to music.
I have also slept.

It’s an odd feeling when you are made redundant. Along with the relief (yes there was a lot of that because although I loved my job, I had a manager that made my life stressful and anxiety-ridden) I feel strange. Like there is something incomplete in my life. I didn’t get the opportunity to say goodbye to the clients (apart from one that I have known for a number of years prior to working with the organisation) and that hurts because I built such a great relationship with them. I have spoken to many of my colleagues either on the phone or in person. There is a sense of disbelief not only on my part but on the part of others.
Yet, now I have been given the opportunity to rest.

My health has not been the best since I was diagnosed with a meningioma (type of brain tumour) back in May. I have had 7 months of chronic migraine ranging from low intensity days to days spent in bed with my eyes covered. Strangely, my headaches have eased in intensity over the past week.
I am beginning to feel better within myself. It may or may not be a coincidence although one of my colleagues said to me when I told her I wasn’t coming back to work “You watch. Your headaches are going to get better now”.
So I have made the decision to be kind to myself over the next couple of weeks until it all sinks in and I can start planning a future.

In the meantime, I am finalising my studies and taking on some more.
I am now a Life and Wellness Coach. I have just updated all my business stationary and my website It Goes On Coaching and Life Wellness
I have also completed a short course –  Introduction to Aromatherapy and I am about to start an Australian Bush Flower Essences practitioner course before I go on to do my Diploma of Aromatherapy.
Maybe it’s time to get myself out there and begin doing what I love – healing others.

Funnily enough, I feel so calm.